My God Can

Through all the overwhelming trials and tribulations of my life I would never have made it. to now, if it was not for my faith in God.  Not once...not even one time, has he let me down when I have asked for help.   Sometimes I have not understood, at the time, the nature of the help, until much later, but I cannot remember a single time that I didn’t stop and think, God answered my prayer again. 

From the time I was a little girl I can remember praying to God to help me, because my parents were fighting again. I only wanted my mom to not be sick and angry all the time. I only wanted my mom to spend time playing with me.  I grew up praying to God to help my Dad stop drinking so much and to ask him to come home at night so I could sit in his lap. I was sad a lot,  because I did not understand why my mom was so angry with me...I felt like she hated me because of the way she treated me. That’s when I felt a wave of God’s arms around me... when I was my saddest ... he never let me feel alone.  Even when as an adult, I walked into my parent’s home and found my father lifeless in his favorite chair.   He had killed himself with one shot, while my mother sat in their Oldsmobile outside in the driveway.   My oldest son Frank was standing in my parents front yard under a tree, looking down, as the police swarmed in and took over. Why do these things happen to me, sometimes I think.... if God is so powerful and can do miracles why would he let these things happen to me and my family?  Do you ask yourself the same questions? 

I have an old salt can that I have used for a very long time.  Whenever I feel like the weight of my world is too much for me to handle, I get a piece of paper and write down what I need help with.  I fold it up and put my problem in my God Can. I let God handle it for me.  He always does. It sounds so simple doesn’t it? 

As I look back on my life through the little folded up pieces of paper, I have realized he has answered every request I have ever asked and fixed every problem I have every had. In his way, God has done this.  As I write this for you I want you to know what I know.  All you have to do is put your life in God’s Hands, wake up each morning and speak praise for every gift and miracle he has given you.  If there is something missing in your life put your faith in God to help you achieve that goal, reaching your goals is what matters to God and with God we can do anything!  If it is health you are trying to achieve write it down and let God help you, pray to him to show you the way and give you strength.  No matter what you are seeking God is your lighthouse out of troubled waters...he will show you the way to an island of peace and prosperity.  I believe this because I have faith and have seen his miracles.  

I wrote on a piece of paper today and put it in my God Can.I don’t mind telling you what I wrote.   Today is February 1, 2004,  my 20 year old son Sam was diagnosed with Bi-Polar disease (which is a mental illness that many many people suffer with).

The Doctors can’t seem to get his medications to work and he is suffering greatly. No one seems to understand, but I do because I have lived with it all my life. I am not worried because God will show me the way, and in doing so I will be able to help my son and many other people with their suffering. 

Through all the trials and tribulations that I have been through...if it had not been for those very times, I would not be able to help other people, but especially I would not be able to help my son.  Through my struggles with weight, my addictive parents, cancer, and so many other obstacles in my life...Thank God, because without his help and guidance I would not be on this glorious path. 

My mom suffered with Bi-Polar all her life and is in a rest home now.  Her life was full of misery and she made my Dad’s life more miserable, because no one knew that she could not help her mania.  My brothers, sister and I were just along for the ride, occupying the back sit on a never-ending trip of “when will be get there?” and holding on for dear life, wondering if we would ever get there. My entire family has been damaged by our passage through childhood, but we have also achieved great things from that same passage that would have never been experienced if it had not been for that time.  I thank God for the knowledge he has given me or I would not know how to help my son.

As I put my God Can back on the shelf in my bathroom, I know that I am in God’s favor, because I have asked him for help, and because; my faith in him is never-ending...

Smiles, Pamela